Well as of the New Year I'll only have 3 treatments left before surgery. I will have to continue the Herceptin treatments every 3 weeks for a year. The Herceptin is way more tolerable and will not have any affect on my hair growing back or my stomach. It does have some side effects but nothing to compare to what I've been through to-date. PS: My hair has started growing back (peach fuzz).
I told my son's piano teacher that I feel like Kung Fu getting preparing for the final challenge. Remember, he moves a big pot of molten steel. You know the one with the marking on the sides that gets burned into his skin. Once he passes that last test he is a Shaolin master. Well that's kind of the way I feel these days. If I can brave through the upcoming surgery(s), I will become one of the elders, a master. It's the old saying, I've seen it, done it, been there, and bought the t-shirt.
So, go ahead and tell me about problems, feeling ill, not enough money, stress, etc. I think I have answers to everything these days. It feels like a club that only cancer survivors can be apart of. To be faced with your own demise. To fight through fear and painful treatments, tests, and surgeries. You can't even imagine what it's like to be taken into all the different OR and procedure rooms. Not to sound depressing but there are moments when you wonder if you have any bravery left in you to go through anymore. This is where the family and friends come in. It's the people like you that read this blog, or listen to me talk, or just give a hug when I need it. You are the people I think about every time I go to the next appointment.
Well, I'll be 42 on January 18th. My last (semi-bad) treatment is on the 19th, so a day I will definitely remember. 2007 will be a hard year filled with surgeries, ongoing treatments, and checkups. For me 2008 will be a year to really celebrate but I hope that everyone will enjoy 2007 for me. I hope and pray it will be a good year for you. A year that is filled with health, wealth, and happiness!
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Luv,
JK
